Harsh Saglani

So, the online exam is going on. There are MCQs and it is on 4 out of the 6 units that we have in our syllabus. Its during the exams that our mind want us to do everything creative and cool. It just doesn't like studying. During exams, I'm like I wanna do this.... I wanna do that... I wanna do that too... and I end up thinking about how I would've done it and searching about it on the internet and stuff. You feel me? So yesterday I was thinking about trying a new linux distro I had deepin installed and then I reinstalled windows so the boot loader got overridden and stuff.( I would've done update-grub but I thought nevermind lets just try a new one). Ubuntu? naah fedora? naah debian? naah solus? not really and the list goes on So I came across this distro known as semicodeOS. It's an OS specifically targeted for programmers and developers. So I was like yeah... I can try that but then I saw that it was in early development and last release was in 2017...

 I promise to you my crush that I'll already be looking at you when you would want to look at me I promise I'll never miss a chance to talk to you I promise I'll never miss a chance to be with you I promise I'll always listen to even the smallest of your troubles I promise I'll always help you I promise I'll always be madly smiling at the ground while thinking about you I promise I will ask your friend to talk to you about me I promise I'll bring you roses anonymously I promise I'll talk about you with my best friend for hours, making strategies I promise that someday I'll tell you what's in my heart I promise that that day you'll feel my emotions and connect with me like never before I promise I'll tell you the uttermost truth about my feelings for you I promise you'll be amazed by how beautiful I think you are I promise you my crush that I'll be the most amazing boyfriend in the world. I promise you, my girlfrien...

Yeh zindagi hai akeli Akela yeh sama Akeli meri saasen Akela yeh jahan Akeli meri aakhein Ek saathi ko talashe Akeli meri baahein Usse apne me bharna chahe Zinda toh hu magar Akela bhi hu Apni hi baaton ko mai Dohrata bhi hu Aakhon me sapne mere Kahi ansune na reh jaye Pure hone par Khushi adhoori na reh jaye Chal rhi hai kaise Na pata ye zindagi Kehte toh sabhi the Do pahiyo pe ye chalti Adhoori wo gaadi Adhoora mai Bina dusre pahiye ke Na jane kaise chalta mai Na jane kaise chalta mai

Kinda going through an emotional breakdown right now. Feels like I'm suffering from social anxiety and loneliness. I'm not alone but I particularly feel like I have a companion. Feels like everything is going wrong. I've never felt this before. Everything is wrong. People I love or I care about getting away from me, things thay should've been normal have gone horribly wrong. I'm not able to focus on task in hand. Haven't been much productive lately. Not able to work on my goals. Why do I care so much about people who possibly don't even think about me. Why do I care about people so much. Why do I get attached to people so easily. It's weird. I this world of more than 7 billion people I feel lost. And alone. 

I'm feeling low. And my head is screaming that I tell you this but I won't. Because I don't matter to you anymore. Because you don't matter to me anymore. I remember once i was feeling sad and how we talked for an hour and I felt better... Much better.. But those were the days.. People change. People get busy So busy that they forget about others. Ever heard your best friend saying I was busy, I had work, i had stuff to do, hence I couldn't talk to you / text you. Sounds funny isn't it. Not according to the "friend". According to the "friend" friendship is more about understanding someone. Great. I agree. But when will you understand me. When will you understand that how I am always free when you want to talk to me. When will you understand that I sometimes feel low and want to talk to you but you're too busy to talk to me. When will you understand that its not always about yourself in friendship. I agree we all have thing...

So, it has been a while since I tried making some games and experimenting with game making. Recently I decided to continue my good old RunStickRun ( player has to avoid obstacles ) and make the graphics a tad bit better ( for obvious reasons ). And from the past two days, I was watching some tutorials and decided to go with the free assets available on the Unity Asset Store. And ended up creating this. And it is a windows based game with basic controls like A & D to walk, holding shift to run and space to jump ! You can download try out this Demo Scene from harshsaglani.byethost13.com/Games ( If the URL loads a blank page, reload the page. It's just an issue with the hosting. ) So, now I'm thinking of making a whole new game out of it. Maybe I just drop things out of the sky and the user has to avoid them. It will be like an endless game. I might also make different endless levels. Also, there are almost 60 characters to unlock making the game even ...

You know sometimes it's just you who's the problem and not the others. Sometimes, it's just that YOU don't find happiness around you or from the people around you. Maybe they're happy, it's just you. Basically, the title of this post is "Gloomy day" but it wasn't until 10 P.M. that I felt horribly sad. Wasn't anyone's fault. It's just me that's a little bit gloomy. I feel alone. I have no one. I have no one to hold tightly into my arms and tell them how I feel. Sometimes I just remember things. Things which I left behind 2 years ago. But they still haunt me. Those memories. I still get goosebumps. I still get sad. Sometimes, I cry. But people don't know. Because whenever they see me, I'm always smiling. As they say: The loneliest people are the kindest, The saddest people smile the brightest, The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they ...

Will never forget these 6 days Few Amazing things happened. Except for the exams, everything was going smooth, happy and cheerful. Until 12th April 12:26AM. After that, everything sort of fell apart. Lesson learned.

So, in our final year we have a subject called "PROJECT AND SEMINAR" and in that, we need to give seminar on recent technologies and develop a small project. So, our guide suggested the topic of our project ("Job Recommendation System") and here we are (a team of 5 people) developing that project. Basically, only we are developing the project. While others would just purchase it from some vendor or project maker (believe me that's normal, at least in our college). So, we need to work hard. By we, I mean me and my friend ( Rohit ) need to work hard. Cuz neither the other 3 know anything about programming nor they are interested in doing the college project with enthusiasm. And here we're 2 people developing a website. Guess what, we named it "JOBIFY". and the tagline is - Find Your Dream Job Easy and Hassle free. Actually that name is stolen from jobify.co.nz but anyway, its for a college project. But is it? Our guide says that, we'll...

So, this guy calls me up and says, "Oye, IMP hona kya kal ke paper ke?" I'm like "De bhai!" and then he tells me about 23 IMP questions which I might end up solving in the exam. I was like okay some of them are the questions I already thought they are gonna come but how did you get these questions? He was like just learn the answers of these questions! I said bata na mile kaha se? So he said "Ma'am se mile. Call lagaya tha ma'am ko dopahar me unhone diye." I was like kamal hai ma'am paper ke 1 din pehle IMP de rhe xD. Then he was like before hanging up, don't give these questions to anyone, just shut your mouth up. I said "What questions? You never game me any questions" So he was like okay, I called you at night just because you shouldn't give it to anyone. I was like you fking IDIOT, if you would've told me that you've got some questions from Ma'am that only you know, and you are telling me...